Yesterday I suddenly thought of something that happened quite a long time ago. I think I was ten or eleven years old.. there was this really nice boy in my class. I had admired him from a distance for a while, and then told my friend about it. She said she liked him, too! And I guess that's how our silly 'battle' begon. She was pretty, nice and smart, and I was shy and not as pretty as her. She did everything to attract his attention, and all I could do was keep admiring from a distance. One day, my friend told me the boy told her he loved her. I got really sad and she tried to comfort me. I would've never imagined she'd lie about that, but being the naïve kid I was, I just asked him if he'd said that. He said, "no, I never said that. Why..?" I just went like.. okay.. nothing, bye! I slowly walked to the schooldoor, went outside, crossed the street with hyper speed and screamed YAY!

I was so angry with my 'friend', but I just pretended that I was heartbroken and sad. Let's see your face when we end up together and you end up alone on the streets, I thought. It makes me laugh when I think about that x3 hoho so evil. Valentines day was coming up soon and I knew it was either me or her now. After class, he walked up to us and gave me this pearly-coloured white shiny marble. It was so pretty! ♥ He said, here you go, and gave it to me with a charming smile. I think my friend turned green of jealousy >: D.

Sadly no happy ending for me, the next year we went to highschool. I never saw him again. Sometimes I cycle past his house, and peek through the windows as I ride by.. pretty pathetic, I know xD But I just can't believe some relations end so quickly! And normal friends, too. You need only a little bit of disagreement to ruin a friendship. I got extra careful of what I said to my friends after this, thinking everything over in my head, imagine if it would insult me if someone said that. As a result I don't speak much, but I'm rehearsing complete conversations in my head. Or at least I used to. It has become less over the past 2 years, and I'm happy I'm able to have a conversation without thinking so much.

It hurt me when I found out my friend lied to me, but I realized something... Be careful who you trust.

... I still haven't learned.

p.s. Raoul and Lizzy, does it match?